If not me then Who?

"If I am not for myself, then who will be for me? And if I am only for myself, then what am 'I'? And if not now, when?" - Hillel the Elder

If not me, then who?

If not me, then who can make me happy?
If not me, then who can ease my burden?
If not me, then who can comfort at times of sorrow?
If not me, then who can colour my dreams?
It is You -not alone - but together with me, I am certain.

If not me, then who else loves you as much as I do?
If not me, then who shall wait as long a it takes, to embrace you?
If not me, then who cares for you deep from the heart?
If not me, then who beseech for your happiness earnestly as I do?
It is me, together with you, I am convinced.

If not now, will this dream wither and die off?
If not now, will the time and distance make things fade?
If not now, will the fire of passion burn out?
If not now, will the silence kill this love?
No!..it will blossom, it won't fade and it will live..till the time comes.

Rainbow

 

It is the reflection of Sun's warming rays on the cold rain droplets that makes a rainbow. Its a beautiful optical phenomenon which colours up the sky. It may not reached, it may not be touched, but it gives joy to look, a beauty to behold.. So what makes a beautiful rainbow, other than two extremes, warmth of a fire and coldness of water, when one reflects on the other?

And though you may not see, there is a rainbow in my heart. This rainbow is made when the bright rays of Hope is reflected on the sadness of today's reality. The reflection of a hopeful dream on the grimness of today, give colours to this rainbow. And thus to this Life.

The rainbow is in my heart. The rainbow made by dreams that promises so much. This rainbow transcends over any gloominess. And thus this rainbow will remain in my heart. So will You, always. Keep a Smile.

Dil Hi to Hai - Just a Heart

Bhoole se mohabbat kar baitha
Nadan tha bechara dil hi to hai
Ooh, har dil se khata ho jaati hai
Bigado na khudara dil hi to hai
Dil hi to hai
I unknowingly fell in love.
This poor heart's only fault was being naive.
Oh, every heart makes a mistake sometime or another
Please don't get upset, Oh God, it's just a heart.
After all, it's only a heart

Is tarah nigahe mat phero                 x 2
Aisa na ho dhadkan rukh jaaye        x2
Please, do not look away from me like that
For my heart may just happen to stop beating.

Seene mein koi patthar to nahin
Ehsaas ka maara dil hi to hai
Oh, har dil se khata ho jaati hai
Bigado na khudara dil hi to hai, dil hi to hai.
Inside my chest lies not a stone,
But a heart with no feeling (a heart with its feelings killed.)
Oh, every heart makes some mistake or another
Please don't get upset, oh God, it's just a heart. It's only a heart.

Bedaag garon ki tokar se                x2
Sab khwaab suhaane choor hue     x2
I've been abused by many people
And all my pleasant dreams have been shattered.

 Ab dil ka sahaara gam hi to hai
Ab gam ka sahaara dil hi to hai
Now, the only solace for my heart is sorrow
And the only support for that sorrow is my heart

Bhoole se mohabbat kar baitha
Nadan tha bechaara dil hi to hai
Ooh, Har dil se khata ho jaati hai
Bigadon na khudaara dil hi to hai
Dil hi to hai.
I made the mistake of falling in love.
My heart was innocent and after all, it's just a heart
Every heart makes mistakes
Please don't be angry, O God, it's only a heart
It's just a heart.

An Advice

Always enkindle your Hopes, always cling to your Faith. For when the surrounding seems dark and world seems bleak,  Faith  is the radiating light that illuminates your life  and Hope keeps you serene, giving purpose to you life and taking you that extra mile. And none can value you truly except yourself.

Always believe you are a child of God no less than any other, and He is ever too close to you if you seek to be close to Him. Believe in God and believe in yourself.

Always remember never to lose your values. Be modest and preserve your honour. True beauty is the inner beauty of the self, and inner beauty manifolds in the true value of the soul.

Curb your temptations and exercise patience and cautiousness in all your affairs. For many temptations, if not restrained soils your soul and self.

Do not seek to attract attention. You do not need to change  frequently your outlook and how you display yourself . Be in harmony with your inner self. Be yourself. For when attention is sought, it is the vile and foul that gets attracted to You mostly, harming You and blemishing your self.

And do not feign affection. 
When affection is feighned, it is the tender and loving ones that gets hurts the most. And it is your own self that gets tainted.

Have fun in your life. But don't make having fun the aim of your life.  Play a little, joke a little. But don't make play your purpose in life. For remember, this life is a fleeting glance and nothing avails for good except aiming for goodness and making your purpose in life to be a source of that goodness.

If you wish to express or speak, speak with truth. Never utter a word otherwise, except for a greater good. Its better to stay silent than to say a vile word or to tell a false tale. And if you wish to talk, talk with someone who is true and talks with truth.

Never lose sight of someone who loves you, expecting nothing in return.  Never hurt someone who cares for you, although he know your  sins, mistakes and short-comings.. Never let go of someone who aspires for you, although he know your imperfections.

Heed the advise of people who deeply love you. Especially from someone who love you and cares you, in spite of knowing that that love may never be returned. For such a person's words are not hollow sounds escaping from the lips, but it is his soul's concerns reaching out to you guide you and to protect you. His is not shallow words written in flowing ink, but one written from blood flowing in his veins and elixir from his spirit's fountain of caring. Seek and heed.

Secret Play?

In a trance, in silence. Heart ponders and heart answers!

Liked the part where the guy dances with the percieved shadow of his lover :). Adds meaning!

Sirrun Mihithaa Kulheleehey?

Sirrun mihithaa kulheleehey
dheevana mi hiyy koffaa
Sirreh bunelan beynun vee hey
Moonu balaa laafaa  x 2

hmmm hmmm , mmmm hmmmm

Heevey ishqee oivarugaa mihithaamey jehenee hen
Loabi thi dhulun haama kuran eba heevey ulhenee hen

Alhe,
Heevey ishqee oivarugaa mihithaamey jehenee hen
Loabi thi dhuluh haama kuran eba heevey ulhenee hen
Faalhuga heevey loabin beynume bunaaney hen

Sirreh bunelan beynun vee hey, moonu balaalaafaa

Sirrun mihithaa kulheleehey
Dheevana mi hiyy koffaa
Sirreh bunelan beynun vee hey
Moonu balaa laafaa

hmmm hmmm , mmmm hmmmm

mmmm,
Beynunvaakan loabi thi hiyy, beynunvey angaidheyn
Haadha ma dheravey nukereythee, hiyy roavaru angaidheyn

Beynunvaakan loabi thi hiyy, beynunvey angaidheyn
Haadha ma dheravey nukereythee, hiyy roavaru angaidheyn
Loiybah edhigen dhaa hiyy vey mihithah ehee eh dheyn

Sirreh bunelan beynun vee hey moonu balaalaafaa 

Sirrun mihithaa kulheleehey
Dheevana mi hiyy koffaa
Sirreh bunelan beynun vee hey
Moonu balaa laafaa
hey heyy, hey heyyy

Loabivaa ah hiyydhathikan dheefaa ma nufilaanan
Loabivaa noon kujjeh loabin kairi nukuraanan
hmmm hmmm hnnnnnn

loabivaa ah hiyydhathikan dheefaa ma nufilaanan
Loabivaa noon kujjeh loabin kairi nukuraanan
Russaigen thiya hiyy, ufalun kanthah ma kohdheynan
 
Sirreh bunelan beynun vee hey moonu balaalaafaa

Sirrun mihithaa kulheleehey
Dheevana mi hiyy koffaa
Sirreh bunelan beynun vee hey
Moonu balaa laafaa
hey heyy, ey heyyy
 

Dream, Determination & Persistence

 In 1883, a creative engineer named John Roebling was inspired by an idea to build a spectacular bridge connecting New York with the Long Island. However bridge building experts throughout the world thought that this was an impossible feat and told Roebling to forget the idea. It just could not be done. It was not practical. It had never been done before.

Roebling could not ignore the vision he had in his mind of this bridge. He thought about it all the time and he knew deep in his heart that it could be done. He just had to share the dream with someone else. After much discussion and persuasion he managed to convince his son Washington, an up and coming engineer, that the bridge in fact could be built.

Working together for the first time, the father and son developed concepts of how it could be accomplished and how the obstacles could be overcome. With great excitement and inspiration, and the headiness of a wild challenge before them, they hired their crew and began to build their dream bridge.
The project started well, but when it was only a few months underway a tragic accident on the site took the life of John Roebling. Washington was also injured and left with a certain amount of brain damage, which resulted in him not being able to talk or walk.

“We told them so.” “Crazy men and their crazy dreams.” “It’s foolish to chase wild visions.” - Everyone had a negative comment to make and felt that the project should be scrapped since the Roeblings were the only ones who knew how the bridge could be built.

In spite of his handicap Washington was never discouraged and still had a burning desire to complete the bridge and his mind was still as sharp as ever. He tried to inspire and pass on his enthusiasm to some of his friends, but they were too daunted by the task.

As he lay on his bed in his hospital room, with the sunlight streaming through the windows, a gentle breeze blew the flimsy white curtains apart and he was able to see the sky and the tops of the trees outside for just a moment.
It seemed that there was a message for him not to give up. Suddenly an idea hit him. All he could do was move one finger and he decided to make the best use of it. By moving this, he slowly developed a code of communication with his wife.

He touched his wife’s arm with that finger, indicating to her that he wanted her to call the engineers again. Then he used the same method of tapping her arm to tell the engineers what to do. It seemed foolish but the project was under way again.

For 13 years Washington tapped out his instructions with his finger on his wife’s arm, until the bridge was finally completed. Today the spectacular Brooklyn Bridge stands in all its glory as a tribute to the triumph of one man’s indomitable spirit and his determination not to be defeated by circumstances. It is also a tribute to the engineers and their team work, and to their faith in a man who was considered mad by half the world. It stands too as a tangible monument to the love and devotion of his wife who for 13 long years patiently decoded the messages of her husband and told the engineers what to do.

Perhaps this is one of the best examples of a never-say-die attitude that overcomes a terrible physical handicap and achieves an impossible goal.

Often when we face obstacles in our day-to-day life, our hurdles seem very small in comparison to what many others have to face. The Brooklyn Bridge shows us that dreams that seem impossible can be realised with determination and persistence, no matter what the odds are.

Promise Me

 

Promise Me. For I promise you this, "If there ever comes a day when we can't be together, You'll be in my heart, till those days pass and we unite again."

I have searched my soul, and I can't understand why these deep sentiments, except for a love and a deep caring. And however much I have sought, I just couldn't find a reason for such a deep love for You..

“One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving.” Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

No Name

You are not the past. You are the present that gifts me a purpose and courage. You are engraved in my heart.
But, You are not a memory. You are the Garden of Eden in my inner space and you are the sweet-scented flower that blooms in my everyday thoughts.
But, You are not a thought. You are the Angel that gives life to this heart, the breeze that gives calmness to this self and the fluttering butterfly that bring a smile on my face, and colours my dreams
But, You are not a dream. You are the cause, you are the journey and you are the destination. 
Hence, You are not ignored. I hope I am not too!! 

Some supplications and Ayah that give me hope and strength

1) Feel lost and unsure of where you are heading and destined in Life? 

Don't be. Remember the  supplication of Prophet Noah, during flood and worst of storms when in the Ark, uncertain of when and where it will land...

وَقُل رَّ‌بِّ أَنزِلْنِي مُنزَلًا مُّبَارَ‌كًا وَأَنتَ خَيْرُ‌ الْمُنزِلِينَ

Transliteration : "Waqul rabbi anzilnee munzalan mubarakan wa anta khayrul munzileen" (Surah Al-Muminun : 29)

Translation : And say, "'O my Lord, do Thou harbour (land) me in a blessed harbour (destination/landing) , for Thou art the best of harbourers ( Thou art best provider of destination)."

2) Unsure of whether you are entering/exiting from and Want to be firm in any affair you enter or exits of?

Don't be. Pray this prayer. The supplication of Prophet Muhammadh (SAW) when he entered Makkah ( in Makkah Fathaha)

وَقُل رَّ‌بِّ أَدْخِلْنِي مُدْخَلَ صِدْقٍ وَأَخْرِ‌جْنِي مُخْرَ‌جَ صِدْقٍ وَاجْعَل لِّي مِن لَّدُنكَ سُلْطَانًا نَّصِيرً‌ا

Transliteration : Waqul rabbi adkhilnee mudkhala sidqin waakhrijnee mukhraja sidqin waijAAal lee min ladunka sultanan naseera ( Surah Al-Isra : 80)

Translation : And pray: "O my Lord, let my entry be with honour, and let my exit be with honour, and grant me power from You which would help (sustain) me."

3) Dua to keep guidance of a guided heart

رَ‌بَّنَا لَا تُزِغْ قُلُوبَنَا بَعْدَ إِذْ هَدَيْتَنَا وَهَبْ لَنَا مِن لَّدُنكَ رَ‌حْمَةً ۚ إِنَّكَ أَنتَ الْوَهَّابُ

Transliteration : Rabbana la tuzigh quloobana baAAda ith hadaytana wahab lana min ladunka rahmatan innaka anta alwahhab (Surah Al Aal-Imran : 8)

Translation : "Our Lord!Let not our hearts deviate now after Thou hast guided us, but grant us mercy from Thine own Presence; for Thou art the Grantor of bounties without measure. 

4) Feel lonely, thinking nobody can help you in your helpless and in darkness?

Don't despair. Allah Says :

اللَّـهُ وَلِيُّ الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا يُخْرِ‌جُهُم مِّنَ الظُّلُمَاتِ إِلَى النُّورِ‌

Transliteration : Allahu waliyyu allatheena amanoo yukhrijuhum mina alththulumati ila alnnoor (Surah al-Baqarah : 257 )

Translation : Allah is the Wali ( Protector/Guardian and Helper/Ally) of those who believe. He brings them out from darknesses into the light. 

5) Felt you can't bear a burden/suffering anymore?

 Allah promises :

لَا يُكَلِّفُ اللَّـهُ نَفْسًا إِلَّا وُسْعَهَا 

Transliteration :  La yukallifu Allahu nafsan illa wusAAaha

Translation : On no soul does Allah Place a burden greater than it can bear. ( Surah Al-Baqarah : 286)

6) Feel dejected and hopeless? 

Don't be.

Allah asks to pray earnestly to him with Fear and Hope. And promises that His blessing is ever nearer to the good-doers

ادْعُوا رَ‌بَّكُمْ تَضَرُّ‌عًا وَخُفْيَةً ۚ إِنَّهُ لَا يُحِبُّ الْمُعْتَدِينَ ﴿٥٥﴾ وَلَا تُفْسِدُوا فِي الْأَرْ‌ضِ بَعْدَ إِصْلَاحِهَا وَادْعُوهُ خَوْفًا وَطَمَعًا ۚ إِنَّ رَ‌حْمَتَ اللَّـهِ قَرِ‌يبٌ مِّنَ الْمُحْسِنِينَ 

Transliteration : OdAAoo rabbakum tadarruAAan wakhufyatan innahu la yuhibbu almuAAtadeen (55) Wala tufsidoo fee alardi baAAda islahiha waodAAoohu khawfan watamaAAan inna rahmata Allahi qareebun mina almuhsineen ( Surah Al-A'raf : 55-56)

Translation : O mankind! Call upon your Lord humbly and in secret. Lo! He loves not the aggressors (55). And do not do mischief on Earth after it has been set in order, and call on Him (pray to Him) with Fear and Hope. Surely, Allah's mercy is ever near unto the good-doers 

7) Felt you don't have anyone who can protect you or anyone you can entrust? 

 Shake those doubts. Allah is with us

فَاللَّـهُ خَيْرٌ‌ حَافِظًا ۖ وَهُوَ أَرْ‌حَمُ الرَّ‌احِمِينَ

Transliteration : faAllahu khayrun hafithan wahuwa arhamu alrrahimeen ( Surah Al- Yoosuf : 64)

Translation : Allah is the best guardian, and He is the most merciful of the merciful ones

8) Dua of the Companions of the Cave

Allah answered this Dua of the Companion of the Caves. And made them sleep and preserved till the evil tyranny of world they were subjected was wiped off the face of the earth.

 

رَ‌بَّنَا آتِنَا مِن لَّدُنكَ رَ‌حْمَةً وَهَيِّئْ لَنَا مِنْ أَمْرِ‌نَا رَ‌شَدًا

  

Transliteration :  rabbana atina min ladunka rahmatan wahayyi lana min amrina rashada ( Al-Kahf : 10)
 
Translation : Our Lord! bestow on us Mercy from Thyself, and dispose of our affair for us in the right way!

9) Dua of Prophet Ayyoob (a.s)

Prophet Ayoob is an example of Patience. He was subjected to many tests and trials, in which he lost all his worldly possesion, family and even health.But he never failed to Praise Allah. Thus, Allah made him close to him and answered his prayers.

 

 وَأَيُّوبَ إِذْ نَادَىٰ رَ‌بَّهُ أَنِّي مَسَّنِيَ الضُّرُّ‌ وَأَنتَ أَرْ‌حَمُ الرَّ‌احِمِينَ

Transliteration :  Waayyooba ith nada rabbahu annee massaniya alddurru waanta arhamu alrrahimeen ( Surah Al- Anbiya : 83)

Translation : And [mention] Job, when he called to his Lord, "Indeed, adversity has touched me, and you are the Most Merciful of the merciful.

10) Dua of Prophet Yoonus (a.s)

 Don't despair if you have committed a wrong. Repent to Allah. He is oft-forgiving and His mercy is ever so near. 

In the Ayah 87, is supplication of Prophet Yoonus (a.s), and the next Ayah 88, promises that with such supplications, he saves the believers.

 

وَذَا النُّونِ إِذ ذَّهَبَ مُغَاضِبًا فَظَنَّ أَن لَّن نَّقْدِرَ‌ عَلَيْهِ فَنَادَىٰ فِي الظُّلُمَاتِ أَن لَّا إِلَـٰهَ إِلَّا أَنتَ سُبْحَانَكَ إِنِّي كُنتُ مِنَ الظَّالِمِينَ ﴿٨٧﴾ فَاسْتَجَبْنَا لَهُ وَنَجَّيْنَاهُ مِنَ الْغَمِّ ۚ وَكَذَٰلِكَ نُنجِي الْمُؤْمِنِينَ

Transliteration : Watha alnnooni ith thahaba mughadiban fathanna an lan naqdira AAalayhi fanada fee alththulumati an la ilaha illa anta subhanaka innee kuntu mina alththalimeen(87) Faistajabna lahu wanajjaynahu mina alghammi wakathalika nunjee almumineen ( Surah Al- Anbiya : 87-88)
 
Translation : And [mention] the man of the fish, when he went off in anger and thought that We would not decree [anything] upon him. And he called out within the darknesses, "There is no deity except You; exalted are You. Indeed, I have been of the wrongdoers.(87) So We responded to him and saved him from the distress. And thus do We save the believers

I Just Can't Stop Loving You

Now and Forever

The touch of your baby against you , she with complete trust and completely secure in your embrace is a feeling a real father will never want to part with.

Heaven Sent

 You are truly heaven sent. You awaken my senses as I lay lonely, wishing and wanting. As I look up at the dark mid-night sky you come to me like an Angel sent.

I feel you like a soft drizzle as you tease me and embrace me like a gentle soft breeze. I feel you, as drops of your affection pour onto me. I close my eyes, submitting to you and the heightened sensations you are creating.

I sense your soft caresses on my hair, then on my forehead, as your little pelt of kisses increase in intensity. I feel your moist touches trickling down on my cheeks towards my lips ,clinging on my skin, caressing me. Your lingering touch on my lips makes me quiver and  I part my lips in hope to quench my thirst. I desire You. I want to feel you on my tongue tips. I wonder whether I can feel your moistness and pureness on my tongue..
 
I still keep my eyes closed, enjoying this heaven's delight. 

You are the only one that can quench this thirst.You are the only one that can calm this fire inside me. Can you feel my firmness? Can you feel my hard and tense muscles as you go your way down on me? Can you Ease my tension?

The thoughts are cut short. 

 Now, I  feel you envelope my whole body. Like a thousand kiss at once, you kiss me all over. I feel you kissing each pore of my skin. I can feel you touch each pore of my skin. Caressing me all over. Sending tingling sensation through my whole body. Sending shivers down back, from my nape to the very last bone of my spine. I feel myself getting stiff. You embrace me in your love. And I embrace you with my love, heart and soul. . I am lost In your sensation.. Eyes closed , sense heightened. Heart-beating faste. Me in you. You enveloped around me. Dancing to the ancient rhythm...

And now you heighten your intensity. You Increase your rhythm. I feel a thousand prickles as you runs and rushes over me. And I feel something explode up in sky. Is it a thunderbolt? Is it a flash of lightning? I dont care. We are  like one, and that's what all matters.

I am in you. You are quenching my fire. You are embracing me. Filling my emptiness with your nurture and love. And we are dancing to the same beat and rhythm. The beat and rhythm set by heaven. And thats all what matters. Oh You...! what pleasure it is to be drenched in you. Soaked in you. Feel your tenderness. Feel your moistness all over me. Take me to the height of ecstasy Let me release my love, let me explode in your wetness.Let me dance to your tune, let me dance with you, till i am drained. Oh! What a bliss!!

Oh You.. Little Drops of Rain. You came to me, as I desired you, played with me, caressing every pore of my skin. Drenching me in your wetness and moistness. You cooled my Fire, quenched my thirst and gave me hope virile and vigor. Little Drops of Rain, you truly are Heaven sent.

(*inspired by a dark mid-night rain and the sensations it created)